A former pastor who resigned from his full-time pastoral role and abandoned Christianity has broken his silence about his decision. In a lengthy video, he recounted the tragic events in his marriage that prompted him to question his faith, and he shared discoveries he made about the Bible that he now considers false.
A Life of Devotion
The ex-pastor, who began preaching around age 12, reflected on his deep passion for Christianity before he deconstructed and left. He explained that although he always harbored questions about certain beliefs, the turning point came when his wife suffered three miscarriages within 14 months.
Loss That Sparked Doubts
He described the period as extremely tough and frustrating. 'The questioning started when me and my wife lost three babies in a matter of 14 months, about eight years ago,' he said. 'The first time it happened, I was torn apart for my son and I just couldn't believe it. Trying to have faith, believe for a second time was like, Imma believe, trying to bypass what I was really feeling, but I was hurt. And the second time it happened, my little girl, that's when it really started. I started to question and I was like, no, nobody's not gonna try to talk me out of this. They're not gonna try to tell me, he got better, he gonna do better and give you double for your trouble. And I hate that language, cause I don't want double. I just want what I had, I want my babies.'
Discoveries About Hell and the Rapture
After conducting his own research, the former pastor claimed he found that hell and the rapture do not exist as traditionally taught. He asserted that these are man-made concepts designed to perpetuate fear. 'I started to study and find out that hell wasn't real. Not the concept that you will burn forever in eternal life would be forever in hell. That's when everything broke down for me. And I was like, okay, this is the problem, because that's the main basis of Christianity. You know, choose him. Do you go to heaven? If you don't, you go to hell. Like, that was one of the main reasons why. And then there was one more thing, the rapture. When I found out that was actually man made and, you know, conjured up, it just continued to perpetuate the hell message. So I was like, I can't be a teacher and a believer of this, because it's a lie.'
Social Media Reactions
The ex-pastor's story, shared on TikTok by @stevevonandbritt, sparked widespread discussion. Many viewers shared their own experiences with deconstruction. One user commented, 'Deconstructing is such a difficult process. I remember feeling depressed, angry, lost, scared… honestly every negative emotion for YEARSSSS. Until eventually it just clicked and I was like yeah, this doesn’t make sense, I’m not doing this.' Another wrote, 'I'm in my deconstruction phase. still dealing with the fear of hell but also wondering if souls can't feel, how will they feel a forever fire? it's hard dealing with this.'
Others expressed similar struggles. A user named justin. said, 'I lost everything about a year ago... it was primarily my fault but I’m homeless and I’ve lost my purpose. It drives me nuts when people tell me this is supposed to set me up for more. I just want my old life back.' Another commenter noted, 'I’m a believer in The Most High due to my own unexplainable private spiritual experiences. Not due to organizational ties.' Meanwhile, yoongsalien admitted, 'I’m trying so hard but I’m in fear of going to hell, I just would hate to have been wrong this entire time but deep down I know how I really feel.'
Related: Apology to Those He Won
In a previous report, another former pastor who left Christianity apologized to those who converted through his teachings. Genesis, who served as a pastor for years before leaving, posted an apology on Facebook on April 28, 2025, stating that he brought people to Christianity in ignorance and was now sorry.
